they are graduating..

my warmest congratulations go to my friends who are graduating this summer. lots of them, in msia, UK and Ireland.

i cannot imagine how i can pass medicine but seeing u guys made it, it kinda makes me realize that i may be underestimating myself. but really, being in 4th year, i cant even tell liver from pancreas! well i might be exaggerating, but it can happen.

i am keeping my fingers crossed that i will be graduating one day, and not just graduating, but will become a good doctor.

there are a lot of things i wanna do when i become a doctor. and let me tell u a secret, not all humans has all the noble reasons to be a doctor. i, for instance not only wanna be a doctor because my passion in it, but also the guaranteed financial aspects that comes together with it. u cant imagine what I, myself, can do with RM4000 a month. i can buy my family members some medical insurance. i can even buy a stupid computer table that i need so much right now. or i could repair my old dying laptop for that matter.

again, congrats to my dear doctor frens. at least some of us dont have to do exams anymore!

sila lah datang...

datang la beramai2..

kat mana??? dewan org ramai kg. baru KL

bila?? 25th april 2009

kul berapa??? 8.30am-1.30pm

my sunday

"you were so f***ing hot that day". beat that! thats a compliment u don't get everyday, do u?

anyway thats not the real reason why im blogging today. i just want to share my experience today at a medical check-up of which we, as in we the 4th yr med studs were the consultants. hah!

hard to believe rite? apparently it happened and luckily we have 2 family meds ex-students - zaimi and mira - so they were superb at dealing with those with high BP, high sugar, hi BMI, and smokers. and well i did my part too. there was this Indian man who were already on treatment for hpt and DM but refused to take medications coz his friend told him that he will be more likely to get kidney failure if he takes the meds. wth rite? i never heard such thing! told him that he would most probably get renal failure 10 years earlier if he didnt take the meds. it works, apparently.

and i salute tabik spring punyer kat mira coz she made everyone listen to her explanation on weight management and lifestyle modification. i mean, really she can talk! she could have actually given a speech on how to manage ur weight and made everyone come and listen to her! well done mira. ur the true future family med specialist!

spontaneous act

believe me, i can be spontaneous. in fact, very unbelievably spontaneous.

stupid crazy foolish spontaneous act.

let's just hope that it will be a beneficial pelaburan for my masa depan. and also a lifelong lesson for me... ameen.... (seriously korang, tlg ameenkan)

i hate financial planning

this self-financial planning im doing right now is so confusing! it doesnt make sense at all. and to think that people actually do financial planning for their living!

well i was determined to bring lunch to school for march, but i discovered that the amount i spent so far doubles the amount i spend eating out in feb. how can u explain that? ur supposed to save 50% if u dont eat out, rite?

maybe the fact that i made big sized sandwiches for lunch is the setback. next time i will try to estimate how much my sandwich cost actually. god i hate this.

saya dengki

officially, saya dengki kat mereka2 yg pegi concert jason mraz semalam. dengki giler punye.

semalam satu hari saya termenung mengenangkan nasib diri tak dpt pegi tgk the future husband of mine. super sad. he must have been so dissapointed that i didnt support his concert.

and i heard some people said that another future husband of mine (Chris of coldplay) will come here for a concert (and of coz to see me), hope i will make it there (on stage with him).

btw, i dont fancy radiology anymore. to be exact, i dont fancy the attactment in the department.

yayyy for anaes and ophtal

the 1 month of anaesthesiology and ophtalmology postings has ended. well i thank god that it has ended very well.

yesterday afternoon we had our anaesthesiology "midterm exam" of which i didnt do as good as i expected and wanted. as usual Prof Ikram being so himself, funny and lights up the room all the time with his wickiness.

this morning i had my first ever ophtalmology viva exam and im proud to say that it was not as bad i thought. maybe Dr Wahid wants me to be his menantu (as my groupmate, haris said), but i sure as hell his expression helped building my confidence a lot in the viva.

im going into ENT and Radiology postings next week, and i surely hope that i will indulge myself in Radiology book in a hope of ruling out radiology as my future specialty. well i think its funny that a lot of my frens think that specialty posting is my thing, i hope to prove them and especially myself how wrong they can be when it comes to me. coz i want to be a physician. and a pilot. or a fighter pilot, to be exact. flying the whatever-F-16-or-something. damn macho, no?

anyway i just wanted to tell the world that hospital serdang has the best doctors and staff in the world, as far as ophtalmology and anaesthesiology is concerned. they are warm, welcoming, friendly, helpful, and of coz motivating. there was is one anaes specialist who was super friendly that while we're in the OT she told us the short-cut route to KL from our house. well she even asked for pen and paper to draw the map for us, as if we had nothing else to do in the OT other than chit-chatting. well she is a super kind doctor, even let haris try to put in the endo-tracheal tube (ETT) in one patient.

well im sure not gonna miss all those OT chit-chatting coz i'll be in for ENT surgeries for the whole March! awesome :D

on a lighter mode, Malik introduced me to this Beryl's choc factory which sells chocs to visitors. All this time i stayed nearby this area and all this time i passed by that factory, i never thought i would sell it's chocs right there and then fresh from the factory. and most of its chocs are not sold in Malaysia. and being a fan of white chocs, this is the heaven for me. i sure will be back there next week for more supply of yummilicious chocs.

and i am looking forward to go back to my hometown on 20th of March to berebut 2009 baju raya with my sisters. my mom will be back from Indon by then. yayyyyy. berebut baju raya with 4 other sisters. imagine the fun of that. kompem ada yg merajuk setengah tahun punye.

of not-so-new year resolutions

ok i know it's a bit too late for resolutions, but i think this time i really wanna make this work. i always had new year resolutions, wrote it somewhere and kept it all to myself. coz i kinda believed that when u want something really bad, it wont come true if u let other people know.

so the list would usually be very long, like more than 10 resolutions? but at the end of the year, pratically none of them will come true. i mean, the point of resolutions is for it to happen rite?

so this year i did not want to make any resolutions initially, but then i cant live without this list of aims and objectives. yep i know i sound very organisy rite?

so i made a resolution, only ONE resolution, and i am going to tell the world about it (in a hope that it will come true).

For the year of 2009 i'm going to keep a financial planner that will comprise all may financial ins and outs.

that's all, simple. i dont wanna stress on myself that i have to save bla bla bla coz i know it is totally insanely impossible in my context of shopping life. i know i told some people that im gonna try to Save First, Spend Later, but it just doesnt work for me. not now, maybe in years to come.

i know that our own financial status is not something that we commonly talk about, but i had this wonderful meaningful talk with one of my dearest fren about how she spends her current salary and how she lived totally on her MARA allowance when she was a student. and i knew i am not alone in this and i feel relieved that somebody understands the urge of spending and enjoying life while ur short in a lot of other things.

and i thank God for having my parents back me up on this one :D

i'm here again

wow, feels like forever!

well i have grown smaller since my last post. shed few kgs for the gas, and i hate to admit it, having a car with me does shake my already-unstable-financial-status a little. and i do still shop around whenever i go places so there goes my kgs.

anyway we've moved to this new amazing semi-D house in seri kembangan. staying with 7 other girls so we are not paying a bomb pon for each person. much sikit than what we paid in cyberjaya. a little prob, this place is not near the hospital nor the putrajaya resource centre. but then takpelah coz bila balik rumah it's kegembiraan and gossips everywhere sampai everyday when one person comes back we gossip right there and then.

i'm sharing a room with my long term roomate since forever kot. ok lah the room ada aircond and ada water heater. kitorg stick to the old theme which is pink. tp kali nih agak menjadi pink coz everything is really pink except our katil and my bedsheet (which i think more of macho side of brown).

on the academic note, am currently doing specialty posting (anaesthesiology and ophtalmology). let me tell u one thing, ophtalmology is the most expensive posting ever coz u have to buy that rm690 ophtalmoscope! apart from the books of coz.

another thing i learn and i want to tell this to all my friends, pls pls pls take care of the hygiene of ur contact lenses and its CASES, coz u can easily get infection from it. i saw this one lady she's got a corneal ulcer coz she didnt know she was supposed to wash or boil her contact lens cases once a month! and i know many of us dont as well. (not me coz i dont wear CL. my visual aquity is 6/4 fuiiyooohhh :p )

ok lah nk pegi tgk the bachelor season 13. gotta lurrrrrvvvvveeeeeee jason!

of holiday

well, it has been long. and im boringly living in PJ for the moment, probably for 2 months of selective + elective. kinda missing home a lot. i wasnt planning to spend the holiday away from hometown but plan changed at the very last minute. and i tell ya it aint easy living off mara allowance alone in kl especially in december. u really have to be emotionally strong fighting all those buy 1 free 1 things and those up to 70% discount labels.

i have a good plan for next year. im gonna save up early from this january so that next december i can shop till i drop. huh.

well for the elective, we're actually doing descriptive data on SLE patients in Putrajaya Hospital. Hopefully it's gonna be good. we're having so much fun analysing the data and all at boss's house in subang for like 8 hours a day. 2 days in subang per week leaving me another 5 days to wander around doing nothing. we dont have any attachment yet so thats why im really looking forward for out aviation medicine attachment in sg. besi in a couple of weeks time.

and in matter of days its gonna be new year and i remember i did have some new year resolutions last year. but i dont really know where it is now. i wonder if new year resolution really works for me?

well what i do hope is that things will be better from now on :D